BISMILLAH

long time passes and here i am, sitting on the edge of my bed feeling uncomfortably nudged between my curled up legs and my curled up belly fat. i feel bloated from the biggest binge i've ever had in less than 20 minutes since last august, when school started, since then i lost all self control and binged every single day after school. now looking down, i feel disgusted at the fat wrapped around my thighs. it's ugly. senior is stressful, however. i rarely have any time to exercise, let alone preventing myself from feeling sleepy and low energied. i want to throw away all the food. i want to feel pure and light again. next year is freshman college, even though i didn't get into my dream school, i still am determined to make the best out of the worst, starting with a perfect hot bod. i need support to start over again. i need to lose 20 pounds and get down to 95 lb by August 20. Think I can do it? I do.

i just learned how to use live journal, i think i'll be pretty good at it.
today has been pretty good day, i abandoned my one way of communication with my friends and and people who bug me by leaving my phone home and went to the mall with my mom and my sister. she's has become less annoying after going to kinder garden for a few days. i bought 2 pairs of jeans, it's pretty awesome, because, i felt so light walking and had little effort putting on the jeans, they were size five. which means, the 22 pounds i've lost really made a difference, i went down 2 sizes!! yayy it feels great. then i came home, blah blah blah... good day!